i'm a dark skinned woman. i accept this fact, i deal with it, i move on. the question is, why must i merely accept something that's so beautiful in the first place? in what way has society fucked me up?

i wanted to write about this because i was on the shuttle today and saw a FINE ASS MAN. i mean, ladies (and some gentlemen, too :-) ) he was FINE. i mean, compromise your morals fine. talk about yo best friend in public cause she looks better than you and you tryna hate as much as possible to bring her self esteem down fine. consider being girlfriend number 1.5-cause-i-ain't-NEVER-a-2 fine.

and i thought to myself, "he's not gonna want me....i'm darkskinned."

when you read that, you're probably like, "girl, you crazy. you on some bull." but I feel like i'm not the only girl out there that has this problem. Society has conditioned us AND our men to feel like lighter is better, when really, pretty is pretty regardless. i constantly hear men say, "she dark-skinned AND she bad? WHHAAAAAT?!?!", and i just shake my head. that's like saying, "he's black, AND he's smart? WHOOP WHOOP!! PULL OVA, THAT AZZ TOO FAT!!!" like, WHAT?!?! WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?? and after years of hearing that and rebelling against that idea, i find myself on a bus deeming my color too unattractive to be admired by a light-skinned man. and the problem is, CONDITIONING!! brothers and sisters, we have been CONDITIONED by oppressive members of the dominant culture to feel that way. We are beautiful--don't let ANYBODY tell you different! not even me when I'm slippin like I was slippin' on the bus!!! (cause i KNOW i'm fine....f*** the bullsh*t.)

ridic.
pathetic.
a vicious cycle.

brothers and sisters, we have to break out of the skinded-ness complex. we have to realize that all shades are beautiful, whether you're albino, redbone, high yellow, midnight blue, purple, non-recognizable....it's all good, darlings. love YOU.

....cause imma DAMN SURE love ME!!! despite my hangups! :-)

God always,
Tiffers